Lazy Monday- Thoughts Sessions #001 Happiness

Hello my beautiful readers,

Just lately I've been feeling a bit down, a little depressed and I think I'm coming into that stage in life where I just don't know who I really am... I'm constantly changing, constantly moving, (even when I feel like the worlds stopped), and I'm constantly looking for complete and utter happiness I suppose.

I wrote a something a while ago, that I thought would help inspire me to keep searching and help me keep the hope... It is so important to be happy, so I thought I'd share it with you, just incase you need a boost.. And if you don't well a top up of hope will do you good anyway! 

"Happy endings. Do they exist? 

                                          No. 

If you have to ask yourself then no, it's a hungry tiger feeding on all of your hopes and dreams; it's a vile trick of nature played upon you day after day, just to make you believe it's real; it is mentally and physically impossible and you shall die sad and alone... That is, if you have to ask yourself.

You see, life isn't like the movies you see on the big screens, or Eastenders, or Coronation street- I learnt that the hard way- but I suppose you may know that already. 

Life is a deep well of desire, despair, hope and glory, happiness, loneliness, sadness and joy, love, lust and creativity which sucks the emotion from your soul as it makes you laugh, cry, lustful and suicidal, fearless and horrified- but life doesn't have to have to win: life doesn't have to control us. Life gave us nothing but one thing: choices.

You may choose to have your happy ending, but if you don't give life the determination to survive on, it will feed on every other emotion you feel and portray until the day you die... So stop reading, get up and do something towards your Happy Ending!"- Trulie H

So there you have it, you don't need to do anything other than be determined to LIVE! No matter what direction you choose... I hope you enjoyed our first Lazy Monday- Thoughts session, 

                                                                                                                          Love you lots, T xo

                                                                -Trulie H

Wallflower

So I was scrolling through Tumblr and I came across this picture. Then I realised, it actually describes what I have become... I am too afraid to stand up and stand out because I am not society's version of perfect. I've really had enough of feeling like this so here it is... I am standing up to society and showing my so- called ugliness to the world and if they don't like it they can shove off because I am my own version of perfect and judging me just adds to their imperfections, it can't effect me... It won't stop me. If you're feeling down and want the world to accept you for who you are stand up with me and hold my hand...we'll protect each other! We made it this far, don't give up, leave me a response with #Truliie'ssurvivors

#mylittlesurvivors

You are b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l, okay? So, I've been letting the little things get to me this past one or two weeks.

Basically, they increased the dose of one of the tablets I take and it's the one the gives me a puffy face, like it swells because the tablet makes you gain weight and retain water... I've been called fat before but I'm not because I can't control it with diet, it's swelling. It doesn't jiggle or anything it's just there and I HATE IT.

I'm not here to tell you a sob story, I just wanted to tell you; you are beautiful, weather you think you're too skinny, too fat, too tall, too spotty, too small, too whatever, you're not, you're perfect because you are you and society is just turning into this huge indoctrinating monster that we must ignore. You don't need big, wavy, shiny, perfect hair or the biggest, sparkly eyes and perfect complexion... you need to be you.

Go ask your mum, your dad, your friends, if they think you are beautiful. I guarantee you, they will tell you that you are and if by chance your friends say no, then sorry, they are not your friends and they aren't worth your beauty.

I don't know why I decided to write about this to be honest, but, I think this message is important... if you don't believe you are beautiful, why should anyone else and even if you still refuse to believe that you are, trust me on this one- be who you are and soon everything will fall into place. I promise. I NEVER break a promise.

PS. Did you know I write songs? Well, like I said I've been going through a rough patch and just feeling generally worthless so I wrote this to get it out and just to figure out where I am at and I've decided that life is too short. I didn't go out tonight because I felt too ugly, what is the point in that, I'm fifteen and missing out on life and I am the only one stopping myself because of the way I am feeling. So I have to stop telling these white lies and tell the truth and just be me and I want you to do the same #mylittlesurvivors

(my song is on my ipad so subscribe and I'll post the link ASAP) Love you guys

Lulu x